h a p p y h a p p y j o y j o y

they say depression can get really bad. well, im not sure if i have ever experience from severe depression ( i suffer from severe hunger, thats a fact *makan saja jua eh* ) but yes, as a 19 year old writing in a pathetic meaningless blog, i can get real down sometimes. sometimes it just happens for no reason.

have you ever get in that mood where you just go "sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" ?

tapi indakan nada pasal. at least something must have triggered it. anything.

possibly it is merely psychological. nyeh. lets not get too scientific about it.
nim lah, moody lah, down lah. its amazing how us bruneians can make certain corny english phrases so overused.

its normal for us to be a bit down now and then. usually it goes away if something good or eventful happens, or it goes away when you wake up the next morning.
when i get depressed, i feel useless. and this is not healthy.

seriously, life would be so much better if we could just be cheery all the time. but thats not possible. because bad old overweight Mr Depression escaped out of Pandora's box.

my depression cures (not guaranteed at all)

- consume junk food, fast food. chocolate, fries, burgers, indomee, whatever, as long as its fatteningly scrumptious and shit.

- listen to favorite songs. jangan lagu yang membuat makin depressed ehh, feel good songs lah. tapi jgn hannah montana ehh, atu overdose tuu.

- talk or chat with friends. friends are the best cause they are there for you and they also go through the same shit as you do =)

- do the silly dance.

- go to the beach.

- if you have a little sister or brother, she or he can instantly put a smile on your face no matter what your stupid adolescent problems are. just don't make em cry. yes they are annoying but its better than taking drugs. apakan.

- shopping. for girls only.

- watch a good funny dvd. scrubs is palui and i love it.

s u s h i o l o g y

life. 4 letters. and yet its THE word. im gonna turn on my lame switch and discuss foodphilosophy. people are the sushi, life is the soysauce, experience is the wasabi. some people don't have a life. in other words they are out of soy sauce. lame and lamer. some people refuse to have wasabi with their soy sauce. in other words, they avoid risks and rather not try something new, hot and exciting. and we, the sushi, we get eaten by our bosses, we get spit out by our lovers, we get poked at by our colleagues. and whats God then? the chopsticks? damn im good.

me: dude! read my new book on SUSHIOLOGY!
dude: maaaan, thats deep.
jealous bitch: well its not exactly Art of War.
me: bitch.
dude: bitch.

e n t a h

nothing could possibly ever make me smoke.
i don't have anything against smokers though. i am just talking about myself.
i don't deny that i have been offered a puff. but its easy to say no. all it takes is one image in my mind. my dad. so many times he had these attacks whereby his asthma gets severe and mom is forced to take him to the hospital for the neubaliser treatment which makes him look like some scary alien who needs that thing to survive.
been a passive smoker all my life.
it is so easy, so simple, so convenient for me to just steal a stick from my dad and light it up and try that thing that people so crave.
but i wont. and im not going to.

vandalbelle and chaospuppet

just another random update

okay, since si max *batuk buat2* majal nyuruh update my blog yang stagnant ane, i will do so. auu ikhlassss ne jangan tah ingau.

so its already the end of july. brunei has gotten a LOT more boringg due to this stupid H1N1 epidemic thats going around and causing people to wear these goofy surgical masks. however, thanks to max, i was able to find a shop in sengkurong selling the washable type. so now i join the ridiculous masses by donning my customised army green face mask everywhere (well almost everywhere) i go. was a bit sakai. hey its washable kaliah. but its next to impossible to breath in those silly things. mine usually ends up in my pocket when i feel lamas. miana an to? kata si max mask atu macam bra. strange enough, my mum agrees.

his majesty's birthday celebration this year is massively sub-dued. stage performances are cancelled in the capital. that part sucks cause i was really looking forward to seeing kaz and his bandmates perform. i wanted to hear paijal singgg songs from the likes of breaking benjamin and coldplay *hee* but sadly, that's not gonna happen. fuck airborne viruses.

i went to the perayaan a few times with my cousins and sis. deerah, with the skinnies and emo bangs, nadiah, with the butterfly clip and overdose smile, nana with the oversized handbag and dramatic flip of the bangs whilst clicking away at her phone, .. and me with the green hoodie and unimpressed expression. and then there were the idiots of the nights. there was even that annoying phrase "syg abg lai" thrown at us. omfg. no im not kidding. but on the plus side, we did get free longan, hahaha xp panats.

whats the use of me blogging? oh yeah, so that one day i can look back at how absurdly ridiculous i was ^_^

time passes by. shit happens. im not gonna blog about those. there is no point in showing your scars and bruises to everyone. its better to leave them in bandages until the wounds have healed completely. eseh, apakan! can anybody actually understand that metaphoric crap i just typed? x) taie *shrugs dumbly*

i am thinking of deleting my facebook. if i do so in the near future, ill just post my pics on this blog. i can get more privacy that way. i think. uk, here i come.